I have not blogged since October 16th, 2015. The only thing that I wrote between then and now was an intervention letter for a close friend.
Life was kinda heavy this week. Everyone goes through it, though. I’m sure some folk would call it 1st World Problems. That’s where I live. I won’t apologize for it. To do so would demean my ancestors whose footsteps made it possible.
This afternoon I wish to reflect on our GODS. I was raised in the Jesuit Roman Catholic tradition. I am no longer religious, but I am still seeking the truth when it comes to the Divine. I would say that I strive to live the “Do Unto Others” tradition. I can’t really argue with treating others how I would wish to be treated. I realize that concept is not unique to Catholicism or Christianity, but it’s what I know.
The GODS I write of are money, career, lust, consumption, knowledge…whatever gets in the way of LOVE.
Modern life has become so complicated for the worse. I check shit on my phone dozens of times per day compulsively. I spend the majority of my day working. I self-medicate. I recognize all of these symptoms yet when push comes to shove most times I just can’t help myself.
At times I find myself wishing something would come and wipe it all out. Then humanity could take it back to the essence.
My fantasy utopia harkens back to tribal living in many ways. I would be perfectly content growing and hunting my own food. I don’t need electricity. Music can be enjoyed acoustically. Beer has been brewed since the dawn of time. Sport does not need Nike or ESPN. I know I would miss the scratch of the Technics and Sportcenter round the clock, but something’s got to give.
Sorry for the rambling. It’s kind of what I do. I just feel strongly that we’re all kind of looking for something more right now. Or at least something different.
The fact that I continue to seek the truth gives me hope at the end of the day. Wish me luck checking myself, living deliberately, and loving unconditionally.